Stars, Hide Your Fires (джен)

There is no pain. It should have hurt - falling into the void was meant to rip apart his body and mind - and Loki is disappointed that it does not. He deserves to be obliterated, to be shred, screaming, limb from limb. He has failed to murder the monsters of his origin, so he instead must murder himself. It is the only way to claw out the evil thing that lives beneath.
It is supposed to be quiet. The vacuum of the cosmos sucks out all sound, but Loki hears movement, hears the murmur of voices and the heavy shifting of pacing boots. If there is no pain, he should at least be suspended, weightless and falling free, but his bones feel heavy and the air around him charged with tension. Loki becomes aware that one of the voices he hears is Thor’s, and that is when it hits him with sickening clarity that he is not dead.
Post-Thor 1. Loki falls from the BiFrost, but Odin intervenes and saves him before he can fall too far and is lost. Afterward, Loki, Thor, and their parents must deal with the fallout of the events of Thor 1. Deals with mental health issues, suicidal attempt and ideation, and self-harm. Please heed these trigger warnings.