all the king's horses and all the king's men (джен)

He's coming unbound, and it feels freeing. 
He's spent his career shackled to convention, to contemporary wisdom, to "scientific ethics".
They are chains he'd been afraid to break, a self-enforced prison of mediocrity. 
The only thing that kept him chained had been fear – fear of losing his career, his livelihood, all that he'd worked for…
Jonathan Crane wasn't afraid of that anymore. 
Truthfully, he doesn't even feel like Jonathan Crane anymore.
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Jonathan Crane, in the middle of falling and in the middle of becoming.