Exposed (гет)

Sliding in a little too close to Amanda at the bar, Sonny tries to gage her mood after this unthinkable day. He covers her hand with his to feel the connection he has to his partner, hoping no one else catches the gesture, but on days like today no one pays any mind to things like that. Carisi and Rollins are silent, turned in toward the other, pressing shoulders and thighs together and taking stock of where the other’s head is right now. Her gaze is fixated on the ice in her scotch glass, her head imperceptibly shaking side to side.
“It could have been you, Carisi.”
Her voice is low and shaky, emotions catching her off-guard. He doesn’t quite hear her, but thinks he knows what she said. He nudges her to get her attention, finding the blue of her eyes with a furrowed brow. She moves away like she’s been burned.
“What if Dodds hadn’t stepped in, hadn’t insisted on going in your place, Sonny? How would I… if you had… Fuck! Sonny Carisi, don’t you dare die on me.”