Ruined (слэш)

Instead of a summary, a sample. If this is too disturbing for you, read no further:
Everything hurt. I huddled naked in the corner of the room, the clothing that had been tossed at me clutched close in the middle of the small ball that I had folded myself into, trying desperately to disappear. What I had always feared had finally come to pass, leaving me lost in a nightmare that had overtaken my life, crushing what little good remained.
My tears were long dried, along with the semen and blood, and my sore eyes stared at the man kneeling down a foot away. I only wanted to vanish. I didn't want him to see me, filthy and ruined.
“You didn't obey me, Toshiro. I said to do whatever he told you.”
I whimpered, hopeless and so cold. All that I had endured, for nothing. He wasn't ever going to forgive me. I could hear it, the pathetic crack as my heart broke.