i couldn't utter my love when it counted (слэш)

If he were to write a list of everything he blamed himself for, it would span the length of at least three copies of the Tale of the Champion. Maybe he should have written that instead of his book. It would have been a nice exercise in introspection.
And it would have prevented the Tale from falling in the hands of Seeker Pentaghast.
The Tale of Inquisitor Hawke from the eyes of his oldest friend, how it started and how it ended.