I never asked for this, I'm just one creature (джен)

"He’s scared that she’ll notice all the shit that’s wrong with him, the stuff that he tries so hard to push down and forget about but is getting harder and harder to ignore. He doesn’t know how much stolen makeup he can cake on top of scars, or how many more times he can work through pain that makes him feel like his skull is splitting open. He is so damn scared that she’ll realize that he isn’t all there and she leaves and he’ll be alone. Completely alone."
A character study on Steve throughout the seasons but from his own perspective as he fails to deal with all of issues, gains a ton of unhealthy habits and self hatred and ends up confused as to why he feels so awful.