the ache for home lives in us all (слэш)

“You don’t have to leave now,” he tells Shang Qinghua.
‘You could stay here forever,’ he doesn’t say. ‘You could choose to stay with this lord forever.’
He watches as Shang Qinghua’s throat works, but Shang Qinghua remains quiet for a long moment, until, “Are you sure about this?” He raises the xiushu in his hand. “If I leave… I won’t- You won’t ever be able to find me, Mobei Jun.”