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Ratmor
Хорошие фанфики по Vampire the Masquerade? Есть ли они?
В связи с грядущим выходом второй части, я прямо-таки заинтересовался наличием чего-либо стоящего в фандоме. Самому искать очень муторно, я даже не знаю сколько мне всего придется перелопатить, чтобы найти иголку в стоге сена. Порекомендуйте, пожалуйста! ^_^

#vampirethemasquerade #vmb #вампиры #рекомендации #порекомендуйте #worldofdarkness
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Как на самом деле у Роулинг работает магическая аристократия? Без всякой родомагии и прочей фигни из фанона, имею в виду. Старые деньги + магия?
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Для Англочитающих! Фанфик по ГП, по букве закона это чдтгп, но по факту это стеб над. Бодрый ОС и попаданец в исчезнувшего до СОВ персонажа Поттерианы. Очень атмосферно и достаточно объемно, но к сожалению там был Морозко году в пятнадцатом. Если не пугает - прошу любить и жаловать. Кто читал - отпишитесь, как вам? Есть ли что-то похожее по атмосфере и не с ГП в главных ролях?

The Perks of Survival.

https://forums.spacebattles.com/threads/the-perks-of-survival-hp-si.311621/

#чдтгп #попаданцы #гаррипоттер #фанфикнаанглийском

Ratmor в блоге фандома Гарри Поттер
https://youtu.be/dldGFHrv__k
Гарри Поттер и Семь Разных Жанров
WARNING
Ор выше гор, смотрите вдали от спящих родственников или супругов
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Помогает ли назначать себе дедлайны, чтобы что-то писать?
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Хороший фанфикшен по Дарк Соулс. Он существует?
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Ratmor

С другой стороны, мне кажется, бывает и такое.
И я опять же не помню, кому я так отсыпал радуги. Думаю, виновато всё же витиевато мыслящее содержимое черепной коробки авторов, а не комментарии/рекомендации на работы. Меня хоть обсирай, хоть не обсирай - пишу всё для второго человека, которому это нравится (после меня).
Не знаю что и думать. Вообще кто из вас удалял работы потому что понимал, что качество не очень? Я - да.

Ratmor

То самое необоснованное чувство вины
Я, кстати, даже не помню кого я так обосрал. Как считаете, так вообще можно делать? Или меня стоило исключить из Хогвартса за такие выходки?
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Ratmor в блоге фандома Гарри Поттер
Гениальный фанфик про Луну Лавгуд. Луна Лавгуд тоже гениальна. Зацените начало.

Luna has a lot of descriptors. Batty, mad, dreamy, mental, loyal, and even brave. There are some she enjoys more than others, obviously. Loony, for example, is a nice little play on words. She also once heard herself referred to as “The Flightiest Eagle in Ravenclaw,” and she’d laughed herself almost sick over that one.

No one knows that she was almost Sorted into Slytherin. (She’d reasoned her way out of it, of course.)

It’s fairly common knowledge now that Harry almost was, too. Why he’d let that get out, she can’t imagine. It must be the reason he ultimately fell into Gryffindor. They have the most reckless habit of giving up all of their mystique -- which is truly unfortunate because when people don’t suspect you have any, it ultimately gives you a lot of power.

Luna likes power.

Oh, not in the way Voldemort did, of course. Again, she has trouble linking his actions with his motivations because why on earth would you put yourself into the position of having enemies? Enemies try to defeat you. They try to take your influence. They malign your character.

No one will ever do that to her. She’s made sure of it.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10680168
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Пытаюсь че-нибудь продолжить по-человечески. Получается только блевотина какая-то. Че делать?
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Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь
Что вы думаете по поводу Эми Даллон и развития её персонажа в Варде? Я чую в ней родственную душу с окр, но это ещё до Бойни. А щас это вообще коктейль тот еще. Вопрос. Реабилитирует ли её автор или она всё?
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Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь

Зачел фанфик с Тейлор, у которой силы Solar Exalted. Бодро, неплохо и меня потянуло на скетчи. Один из них.
Ссылка на фанфик
https://forums.spacebattles.com/threads/daystar-worm-exalted-crossover-au.773104/
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Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь

Ну и немножко Красной Королевы (спойлер на Вард)

Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь

Пока что просто Тейлор

Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь


Ну и Регент пусть будет, я подряд несколько дней уже вместо того, чтобы работать скетчи рисую. Вот что написание фанфиков по фандому без внятных представлениях о персонажах делает. Наверное, скоро доберусь и до Скиттер, но пока что-то не тянет. Не хочется просто так её рисовать, хочется чтобы задумка была или конкретный сюжет. Ваши предложения? Какой момент из канона крут? Сложно выбрать.
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Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь


Забыл бросить сюда Сплетницу, ловите =_= Не скажу, что лучшее в моем блокноте, персонально горжусь сестрами Даллон, но эта тоже норм.
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Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь
Ну и Сталкера из этого же блокнота вдогонку

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Ratmor в блоге фандома Червь
Меня забомбило на Реддите. Ознакомляйтесь. Мнение по поводу проблемы отношений Эми и Виктории https://www.reddit.com/r/Parahumans/comments/dvjgkj/thoughts_on_amyvictoria_relationship/

Содержимое под спойлером он большой

Well, I witnessed the holywar and I need to expand on that, because that thread looks too overpopulated with it's children. I don't know if somebody already discussed that angle, and I don't really care, because that's my own thoughts on the matter, and if they correlate with someone else's, I'm glad.

If you didn't read Worm or Ward and know nothing about Amelia\Victoria problem don't read further.

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Once I've been told two quite reasonable things that gave me strength in a very difficult (for my own self-respect, really) situation.

First. For a number of biological and social reasons, some people are more prone to violence than others.

Second. The world is not black and white.

For some people it is more difficult to refrain from uncontrolled behavior, from those impulses, internal drives, whether it be sexual or aggressive. But those can be learned to control only if you recognize it as a problem and solve it as a problem. A potential victim, of course, can behave arbitrarily - nothing really justifies violence. A potential rapist can learn to master these impulses and must learn to abstain. But as long as we blame the victim of violence and justify the rapist, this will not happen, because we are replacing the subject of the problem. So, I'm never justifying rape, like, it's the main reason I ever got into the kind of talk about the nature of violence - I physically hurt (almost killed) the person who raped, by that commiting incitement to suicide, and he wasn't punished for it, really. How could I not understand the hateboner almost everyone showed me here about Amy, but I didn't really expect it.

Let me just explain why.

She needs help, we've established it as readers, Vicky established it as concerned party. Everyone but Amy established it. And Amy can't establish anything because she needs help in that exact thing that stops her from analysing her own actions. She needs to be carefully diagnosed, and there are two ways for it to proceed. She's either psychopath that needs to be isolated (I'm not talking about killing, that'd be boring), or she can be helped. And I'm not going to talk here about the first thing. If it can't be helped then it can't be helped, okay? And that's for Author to decide, really, not for me.

The Help has to be concentrated on motivation. She would have to break through her crust of shame and self-justification that I saw, and work through her deep encounter with violence throughout all her life.

The shrink would have to form an idea that this is a problem that threatens not only the environment, I mean, other people, but Amy herself. And she must be assured that it can and should be solved. Her state after what Riley did to her, what Jack did to her, what her familial issues did to her, and she fled the house and then used her power on Victoria reminded me actually about how it's really impossible to stop yourslef when you weren't able to track the harbinger of seething anger (becoming something much more violent) in time to stop it.

It's not just about willpower, really.

This healing process would be quite real and possible when any form of violence would be considered unacceptable, not just rape, not just beating.

Especially, beating up someone you don't see as a human being that is equal to you.

You heard it right, that was a pun to Victoria's behaviour in Worm, yes, it was. And not only Victoria, really. The violence is sort of normal for all the Wormverse setting. (Not if our reality is much different) I don't mean it as if it was really okay to be violent in most civilized cities, no, it wasn't.

Brockton Bay wasn't fucking civilized.

Any form of violence should be unacceptable for that healing to truly work. To strike, because you think that you've been insulted, to hit the child, because they are annoying, hit an animal? None of those things should be acceptable.

However, coercion permeates her personal experience, and that was violence of sorts as well.

Her overeager discipline and self-denial?

Violence as well.

And when any form of violence is normalized you have fear of experiencing it as a victim. And fear of doing it, too.

I see the Amelia\Victoria relationship as deeply poisoned by all the violence they've both encountered. By all the violence they've inflicted and received.

I mostly see their family relationship as some cycle. Amy was in codependent relationship with both Victoria and Carol and even Mark, when she wasn't getting what she wanted from the relationship but was used in many ways but one. And you probably know what I'm talking about.

Yes, even if she loved Victoria, she still did what she did.

You don't rape those you love, you know?

So, there are two things what I think that might've happened.

First. It was love but quite twisted and maniacal, so we go to root one - she's psychopath and maniac, so she needs to be isolated (or you know what but I still think it's boring). No reason to discuss this turn of events now.

Second. She was angry with what she experienced, so that wasn't an act of twisted love like how Hannibal wanted to eat those he loved, but an act of anger, revenge and sexual assault as a result of all those feelings. I kind of see it when she starts to explain all those things about their childhood, or when she doesn't think that she had parents even if they still somehow care about her, even after what she did.

She admits she finds it hard to care after all those months, years even, of violence she experienced on mental level. She wasn't beaten or physically assaulted, but she lived in a very unhealthy modus operandi. And I don't really fucking know if her neuroni specchio ever worked right, I didn't do her MRI scan, really, but after all that time of looking at the wounded and hurting, they might've stop doing it properly. Mirror neurons make empathy possible and it's a reflex of some sort as well as I remember, but it can be trained out because our brain doesn't usually like to hurt itself.

So, follow my thought, if a person sees lots of hurting people he would lose some of his ability to empathise.

That's a scientific fact of sorts. I'm not really writing diploma work here, so search for sources by yourself if you're interested in the neurology. I asked my neuro-surgeon intern friend, and he confirmed I remember things right, but quite primitive, so I'm ready for your critics. Got roughed up by that bastard =_= Love the guy, truly. Back to business.

So, she wasn't born this way, we established. She cared, once, she said so herself, but she kind of lost the ability to. And I think, you know what sociopathy is if you ever looked it up. They have no doubts about their actions, not able to realize the degree of their participation in any violent incident.

Others are always to blame.

They are not people for them, but rather objects, objects that serve the satisfaction of their needs.

You see where this is going, yes?

The thing is, if she doesn't feel responsible at all, then she's a sociopath. Dangerous one because of her powers, and she does look like one when she admits that she couldn't care about those she was healing. She said, she cared about Victoria, but she probably just wanted Victoria for herself, then.

And it doesn't add up with how she was fixated on not doing what she wanted to - and she didn't want to do to Vicky anything even resembling good.

Sociopaths do what they want.

Even the thought of such violation of other person should make anyone cringe in disgust, shouldn't it?

In a perfect life, in a perfect world.

In her life Amy saw tonns of violence without any repentance, she tried to be a good person and she would've been capable of it. I'm so sure of that because I didn't forget about quite canon Escalation Engine, or whatever it's called. At least, I hope I got everything right and it's canon =_=

I've been accused of not reading the book, but I do have other things to read and I don't remember everything I've read, especially if I did it for fun and it holds no scientific value. It was genuinely good if I even care about writing anything about it, remember any characters and sketch things for it when I'm working. So, the point is

I also see a lot of fear and suspicion in her. And deaf defenses were built, allowing her not to hear the true voice of the person she victimized.

But I remind myself, that there's always lots of helplesness and fear under mostly anyone who commits violent actions. That's why she needs help in matters of understanding her consciousness and self-awareness, to take responsibility, including for the crime committed, and for her future. Yeah, I know that it's impossible to force someone into any productive therapy, but it seems to me that's what Victoria doesn't understand.

Victoria was the core part of all Amy's existence before the Birdcage. Even if she was envious of her and hold some hate against Victoria, she loved her and it was multiplied by the lack of choice and the lack of trust, as well as I see it. And you do understand, I hope, that trust to other people is built from the trust to your closest, your family.

Trust, agression, love - it all comes from nurture in most cases. She felt love from her sister and she felt that she might betray this love if she admits her feelings aloud, destroy it and make them both unhappy, so she'd be left without anyone at all. That's perfectly fine when people don't admit feelings, really. Not healthy but fine. Though, that doesn't add up with her being sociopath from the start. So, she wasn't and my theory is right - that's her power.

She's starting to act like a sociopath only when her mental block on going deeper into someone's brain falls. Not earlier, even if she feels those mixed feelings and starts to lose her empathy because of the fragile state of teenager psyche and constant violence and products of violence around her.

You do understand how fucked up she was when she couldn't even trust herself to undo the changes made to "fleshblob" Victoria? She was afraid of her power, rightfully so, but she was afraid of it from the beginning.

But the passengers came for data, not for making parahumans' lives easy. Powers like to be used, right?

Tell me what you think of my opinion. It was that big I couldn't put it where it was started and I really wanted to share it with the community.
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Ощущение убогости накатывает, когда не могу по-человечески перевести свой собственный фанфик с английского на русский.
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Сестры Даллон, скетч был сделан под песню I have but one heart Al Martino. #червь #worm
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