Improvising faith in uncertain times (слэш)

“I think I’ve been wanting to do this since the first time you said I was annoying. The first time you’ve belittled me. I think I’ve been keeping wanting it all this time, that it’s because of it that I’ve asked you for help instead of any other classmate or professor which might’ve given me the same information. So when I heard you say I should’ve done something to distract me from the idea of the exam… well, actually I was already distracted enough by your presence, but I wanted to take it a step farther. So I did.”