Pococurante

(Noun.) Cold, indifferent, nonchalant. Chris had been forced to be many things in his life: a witch, a whitelighter, an actor, a lord, but at heart, he was as cold as ice. Now, faced with himself and his decisions, he feels his icy facade begin to crack under the pressure and the countless parallels he sees. Revelation. Implied: abuse, slash, het, neglect, dramatic irony, etc.